Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Thank you to my husband

Well, friends, it's official:  I'm done with math.  I had my oral comprehensive exam this morning, which was not nearly as bad as I've been making it out to be for the past year and a half.  I passed, and I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  Unfortunately, I still have one teeny tiny elective to finish up, but that will be over in about two weeks, and I will be a Master of Mathematics.  (Doesn't that have a nice ring to it?)  As a tribute to some of the crazy things I've learned, I've posted one of the proofs we did in a class last semester.  It took several hours to prove.  I'm not sure it's the longest one I've been through, but I wanted to post it, as my notes will probably end up in the trash eventually.  But this way I have something to remember my grad school career by.

One of the primary reasons we started this blog was to keep a record of our lives.  I think I've mentioned this before, but a central theme in the Old Testament (at least from my perspective) is to remember.  "Remember the Lord your God who brought you out Egypt."  I don't want to forget these past couple years because they have meant so much to me.  Yes, grad school really, really sucked at times.  There were times I had never felt so stupid and incompetent.  But, there were times I felt more knowledgeable than ever before.  I don't want to forget these times, because they shaped me into who I am.

That said, God really did bring me out of my own Egypt (read "grad school").  He did that in a very special way--He did it through Brett.  As I've been sitting here thinking about how much I've learned the past couple years, I keep coming back to one central thought--I could never, ever have done this without Brett.  I debated making this note public knowledge, but, then again, the whole point is to remember.  So, here's a way not to forget.

Brett, here it is in writing.  You have my permission never to let me forget this...

Brett,
Thank you for supporting me and giving me a shoulder to cry on when I thought I'd never be good enough to get through this degree.
Thank you for believing in me--even when I didn't believe in myself.
Thank you for putting up with my glazed-over eyes when we were in mid-conversation, because my mind was wondering to some silly proof.  I'm so sorry you had to put up with that.  Our conversations are much more important, and I genuinely hope I can keep it under control from now on.
Thank you for being excited for me when I snapped out of it with an, "I got it!"
Thank you for sympathizing with me when I realized, "No, I don't got it."
Thank you for never complaining about all the restless nights before--and after--an exam.
Thank you for believing in me as a teacher, even when my students failed their tests...miserably.
Most of all, thank you for being a constant friend, one who has loved me unconditionally through this emotional ride.  I could never have done this without you, and I hope to return the favor someday.
You really are the best,
Rebecka

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